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Understanding, Wisdom and Insight!

As I am working on a project I sit and watch the Book of Daniel and The Passion of Christ. Something came to me which is in the form of understanding granted wisdom which I so desire for myself and all that follow God. I have learned and grew to learn that all suffering which happens to all those upon the earth happens. We must strive to understand and humble ourselves under the Most High God. As I walk through my time with others amongst me teach them the ways in which I know given to me by insight into the wisdom and understanding of all before me some still live. To choose otherwise may lead to my destruction not to my salvation. With words typing as I lay upon the screen with my eyes that forever gaze upon God I remember Him and say let your will be done not of mine or that of others. I will always utter from my lips let all other ships pass and sail away from me for God you are so kind when I come to know you more and more everyday. I have learned from your messengers that you sent even Jeannie may she rest in peace. Peace is unique to those who live it. As I walk I will share her story along with God’s from where it all began. Walking further into the mind of me I share this I hear His words that speak to me through other means and of my heart. I will never forget those things which were taught to speak the language of you forever more. My heart cries to you to deliver me to where I am supposed to be. I ask that all that oppose me shall walk away and not speak to me rather than spill from their lips lies to deep to realize. I pray that one day they may see the true Faith by way of your most precious children. Those who fight the fight they fight unique to them only I pray to encourage them forever. To lift up your Name Jehovah with the most highest Honor and Glory. I don’t know where my journey will end I just know it will be as you have planned with no more delays let me speak only what you have me to speak. I rest my eyes upon you and your words in hopes of one day leading people on the right path. I hear my name being called as if I am supposed to go and see people that I may put back on the right path for I know you are real and you are beside me every step of the way . I love you Heavenly Father Jehovah and all things created. You are perfect in every way and just in all your ways. I must knock down the doors that stand in my way to get to you. One day I know you will call me home and I want to make sure I have a way to get to you the closet I will ever be. As I begin to separate my self from the worldly people I will seek out and find the answers which I know are there just not meant for me to understand just yet. As I conclude this writing I will say to all that read this please take the time to read fully read this maybe you feel God as I have through many messengers and other sources of knowledge. I pray for all whether you ask or not it is given cause I know people pray for me so I will pray for those who are burden by the afflictions of this world. No one knows the time God will come but He is coming regardless. He will descend from heaven as He has done before. Every eye will see and every heart will know that the One True Living God is upon you and your time is over on this earth. For the old Heavens and Earth shall pass away and a new Heaven and Earth will be put into its place and the Meek shall inherit the new earth and all the rest will be beside the only one true God. Amen

Painfully Simple!

To all that read this have ever had harsh words toward Jeannie or Me let me make it painfully simple. I don’t care what you think about me. I only care what God thinks of me. To all those selfish people who claim to be Jeannie’s family who are not there vacationing, talking about her husband when no one thinks I will hear, or just doing what you want to do. I am so ashamed of people on this earth cant even see past anything about me to see family. This is a rotten earth because of the people living in it. I have made mistakes which I remember paying for so I paid my debt to society 15 years ago. I really don’t know why I am blogging about this anyway because just like some people do talk trash please do yourself a favor and stop. I mean if I am such a bad person why does everybody feel the need to talk about me. Giving that some thought I let the thoughts go. My life now is a gift to feel the pain of others its ok really I am used to it. I am used to having so much thrown in my directions with the words of the mouths of those whom are not what appears to be Christians. I don’t have any reason to explain myself to people who sees my words as harsh. I simply don’t care. Find something better to do it makes no sense to talk about people what good is it really. I mean is your life so boring that you post uncalled for things with no intelligence at all just ignorance. Lets gets a few things straight I did have a Job which I was fired after I was injured. So I am a good for nothing trying to live off of someone. I have heard it all and as God tells me there is nothing new under the sun. what you are doing right now is what people have done for centuries even before Jesus. I have a hard time now trying to figure out what the next day brings but I look outwardly and see so many people hurting holding on to what material possessions which I know once I die I wont take them with me so why should I care about that now. What a lot of people don’t know about me is that I was homeless which I chose to do sometimes I would rather be with homeless then with people who have things the ones who that is all they care about. I realize now that I lean unto the understanding of God and let his light guide me because He is my only navigator who can really take me home. Now that  I have gotten this far I think I will close. This maybe the last words I will ever write maybe not…

Here We Go!!!

Before I begin I just want to thank God for allowing me to speak today. I just want to say to all the sick people out there whatever the sickness is I pray for you! I mean if you look at all people in some way we are sick in some way like some people will get smarter based on a deep dish pizza. Yes I referred to my last post. I will always  us that blog from now on here and there to remind everyone of how sick people can really be. As days get short and winters colder its colder than that in the hearts of the ones who find laughter in someone’s sickness when they themselves are sick. I don’t understand with all the smarts I have can not even begin to understand how grown people act the way they do. I don’t believe its all your fault either but could it be when you know its wrong and continue to do so. That’s what ignorance is to me just think that’s the same kind of problem that has be going on from the very begin. People made fun of Jesus so why should I think that people today to entertain the devil instead of Glorifying God. I have used computers in many ways never once before all of this would I feel the need to write more and more everyday. To Glorify God the Almighty I will say that the things when Jeannie and I setup this page we gave strict instructions about rude or disrespectful towards anyone on our page will not be tolerated. So guess what if your not with God your not with me or Jeannie for that matter. Well for all those thinking of interfering in God’s plan you are mistaken it wont work if its not in his plan then nothing will stop that. Just as the ones who anonymously reported us and we are still here! Just incase people forgot even if it’s a prayer request I have a right to assemble in a religious practice in the united constitution. So now that you know the earthly laws lets get you ready for God’s law. If you find yourself to clueless I highly recommend seeking professional help oh wait that means you have to speak to God. Well he appointed such mediators like the Pastor at your local Church. If for some reason you just don’t want to listen the I pray that one day when you read this or anything else I write maybe just maybe you will change the path you are on. Just so you know that the people I am speaking to are not ones I would think would be of God just themselves and you know what that means of the devil. If you are or think your living a hard life let me enlighten you on that there is always someone worse than you!. Never know who you maybe entertain or dispute with you might be among Angels’! No matter what though I will continue my path that I am on right now and try and make sense of the wicked. Well I better leave that up to my pilot His name is Jesus!

Deep Dish!

Well 1 day completely off Facebook and I have noticed something. I know I have had less stress from the outside world just in a short time period. Well I was thinking on something though. I was thinking that food does improve something it can improve your GI tract or make it worse. So I had deep dish pizza tonight so far so good but it did not improve my thinking only made me realize the potential bad stomach issues for those who have no stomach. I have Gastritis so pizza is not really helping the situation but most of the time I don’t eat cause of things unknown other than my gastritis. Well I think about all those that don’t know about such issues I am here to tell you that its real because not only do I live with such issues so does my wife who struggles then the world sees fit to denounce her in every way. Mainly with words, no phone calls and no visits but a few have. You know I was planning on make jokes about the things I have witnessed from the view of a friends page on facebook I see its still goes on laugh now cry later. JUST TO LET ALL THOSE THAT READ THIS WHEN THE TIME COMES FOR JEANNIE TO LEAVE THIS EARTH MOST OF THE THOSE THAT FAILED TO BE RESPECTFUL WILL NOT BE ALLOWED TO ATTEND. I SAID THAT SO AND MY WIFE WILL AGREE TO THOSE TERMS. I just want to make this clear above to those who think sick and twisted to further be clear I will remove personally anyone that is not supposed to be there. To name one person in particular is Chris Chandler . You laugh all you want now but remember or be careful to those that see you how foolish your behavior.  This life is not a joke neither is anyone elses we all have our share of problems but me and my wife are taking the time to live the way we want to without facebook. I will still continue to write be cautious my words maybe in a book one day. I wanted to bold some of the things I am saying so it is clear on what I am saying or meaning as we all seem to atleast my knowledge most of the people I am referring to are college educated which seems rather disturbing on if adults are acting this way what will your children think later as they can do what they want to do and laugh at others who are sick. Well I say this I pray for all of you out there that seem to do what you want now live how you want to live and leave me alone about all your sicken disbursement of words without cause to use such harsh content on facebook. You may never know who is watching your page if you have a job employers may look at your page or if you are in management you may be looked at by higher authority. Very interesting how we worry about what our bosses think why don’t we worry about what Jesus thinks anymore?  As far as I know and all the bold type nice font evenly spaced some other language oh for those who don’t read such an elegant book its called the HOLY BIBLE! In there you find many things such as life’s lessons. You know you may find yours to be freshly pressed with dust on the cover or buried with others books long forgotten and long over due to pull it out and start reading again or for the first time. Well for now if I say anymore will just be redundant or not needed. The point I am making is simply and conclusively that be care for the things you say or do are never unnoticed you may have a habit of doing it so much that you start doing it other places. Ask yourself this question when your children begin to understand what you saying which they may already do and since they are impressionable learn as you do not what you say but your actions. I will continue to pray for all those that read this and love everyone no matter if they love me or not!

A Rapid Growing Problem!

I am 34 and don’t care what others think.  I have been down a rough road some of which my own doing by bad choices that I have made. After all these years I have learned from those mistakes and continuing to keep on the right path. Now I have seen a lot of things bad and good no matter will spare the details to make my point. A rapid growing problem as the title of this blog which is really a question which I will answer. You maybe think what could be a problem now with all the other problems of this world but I have noticed that families have this problem cause they get comfortable with each other and do as they please which appears that they don’t care. Well my view on the problem is that I don’t know if it will ever stop which causes pain to me but to others as well. Wow still haven’t listed the problem yet well the problems are with peoples mouth’s. Even me at times have said things not intentional but once you say things its too late to take back so we must learn from this. God says our tounges are like two-edged swords. Now I know fully what that means because the words that come out of us cut and cut deep. Since the events that led up to this blog is recent people with this disease. Its sort of like when you over indulge you have stomach related issues that we all know about. What happens is that you realize maybe I should not eat so much and you may consider changing the way you eat. I think people will not change the way the talk to others simply because we live in a world that thinks more about the First amendment instead of the the Ten Commandments by God. I love God, My wife, and this country. So I know how things work in this world but as most don’t listen to God what makes me think that they would even care what I had to say. I am not saying I a lot of people I know do this I have just noticed that it’s a rapid growing problem. Now that recent events from this it is decided by me and my wife that we will no longer speak on here meaning FB. We are done with the ones who cant talk, or things that are said that are trashy or simply because they feel they can say anything we don’t have to listen or see it posted so we wont see anything for a while if not forever. My wife is the only important thing right now in my life so I am going to focus on God and her and that’s all I really need to focus on. I don’t know when God will call her home but know this she will be called home one day. So you never know when that will happen if you care at all then you know what to do.

Life Unknown!

This blog and every other one I write is inspired by my wife Jeannie! Well you all know that God is the truth so that’s what I write. There is so much I can say about my wife which most will never be written or even spoke about but I will say all that I am going to say for now about her. She has been a wonderful inspiration to me as but let me ask you this simple question What is the point to be inspired if nothing in return is giving? With that question presented I further elaborate further. Why do others NOT ALL among her friends, family or the like  sit in silence and not visit or message. I want each individual who reads these words to continue to think on this from now until you no longer are able to. I will say this from the NOT ALL IN BOLD means that some family and friends do speak to her. Why do people who care or say they do not speak is it FEAR! To sit in silence means you cant speak or your afraid to. It is sad when families depart from the mouths of others and not her. Since we have been married its been so wonderful and I wont give up on us just because the road is rough the love I have is unique I see in my heart so I know. Why is that the same love you have for God and you talk to Him but not to a sister of Him  you speak not? Life will go on whether or not you do speak but I will speak for ever almost if I am haunting those of conviction. She is full of courage beyond my understanding but as we are all human we all have feelings and emotions spawn from such. Yet we still pray and ask God to heal. As God says in His word that by my stripes you are healed. So does that mean we are already as healed on earth as we will ever be or are we healed because he saved us to prepare us for our home in Heaven. So for now this is not goodbye for her she is still here and if that is as healed as she is going to be then I will endure with her forever until there is no more. Let the words I speak linger in the hearts and minds of many who read. I remind you that while this is positive thinking it does not mean she will be healed. God gets what he wants regardless of yours. His will be done on earth as it is in Heaven so he says that clearly through out the whole Bible He shows us that over and over from Genesis to Revelation. So listen close to this As much as we want someone to stay with us on this earth we will all leave one day. My wife is awesome as she goes day by day living the life she has been living with love , faith and courage without ceasing. The suffering I believe is God’s Love at its hardest. No matter how much Faith or love or courage even we still feel pain. To my Wife: I will always love you even after your gone I will hurt and eventually get to where I can control the emotions again its so hard to imagine you even not being around. To write this I must endure and will continue to do so. To all others: I will be here until my last breathe on this earth to remind those of her especially the ones who don’t speak or refrain from doing so because of FEAR! Fear is what ponders and preys on the ones who don’t see the real truth. The truth about life itself is that we all have a purpose to most have idea what their purpose is and that is understandable. I will say this I do know my purpose but don’t feel everyone would understand and that being said I wont say what it is. What I will say is that God is real he is there whether or not we recognize that. If you have any doubt whether he is real or not is simply look at my wife with the journey she is on right now and also where does love come from if God don’t exist?  So now that’s disclose open your mind up and see what I say is true. Even I wont hear from most who read this its really not important what is important is that you read this. I wonder sometimes if people are really busy or so busy they don’t even know that people other than them selves exist. Why cant we let go of ourselves for once to feel the emotions of the ones who need us the most to make the next life even better. Why do we hold on to the past so much to hinder the futures of the lives who chose to live in fear. I do fear God’s wrath but I take this into consideration what if the Final Judgement God ask why did you not speak when you could therefore as I sit in silence for I don’t even know you. You know it’s a wonder with all the religious people who claim to follow God don’t even know or think they know the real meaning of what God says that “ He will judge you openly amongst your peers not for the things you have done but for the things you have not done!” What would your response be? What if you didn’t get into heaven because you sat in silence from those who cherish the words of people she loves? The questions you have before you are real I ask them because I believe there truth. Final thought really think about the truth that is spoken. I urge those who read to read this and to encourage those to change now cause you could very well burn in the end. So that with all that you are given just a breathe of fresh air the next could be your last or Jeannie’s…  BUT SHE IS STILL HERE ON THE SAME PLANET AS OTHERS ARE. SO IN THE NEXT BREATHE THINK ABOUT IF THIS WAS THE LAST THING YOU READ AND YOU WERE JUDGE AND YOU WENT TO SOMEWHERE WHERE YOU DON’T WANT TO BE BECAUSE YOU FAILED TO LISTEN TO ONE OF GOD’S FAITHFUL SERVANTS. Interesting………

Childish Twists and Turns!!!

Before I begin I will say this if you take offense to what I say its your own doing. Meaning that I will not name names in this post only me and my wife’s name will be mention or has already been mentioned. As I begin this I will say that I only post when i feel that it is needed or i have been inspired by events that may or may not be tied to me or anyone i know just observe the words and let my words speak inspirations to you. While i do the typing I want to remind also i have no hatred towards anyone nor want ill feelings in regards to people as a whole. I have come to realize that people while being adults and children being children sometimes adults are childish or child like. In fact God says we are all his children. I do look towards my wife for this inspiration because of how she handles life and everything that is thrown in our direction cause we are a whole body together. I am really writing this to tell you that you will be held accountable in some way no matter your religion and i have took my whole life just about in studying all religions. Let me make that clearly to those who dont know me completely. Studying is reading not practicing that religion. I am not saying that I have practicing anything but Holy Bible. So that being said i will continue. To continue this is to ponder on why words hurt so much when people say them is to understand people. Not that i can fully understand nor do i believe that anyone can understand anyone else for that matter. Instead of understand the person we assume all people are the same with the same illnesses. The problem is that the illness its that people dont deal with anything to easily. Lets focus on the person and not the illness for once in our busy lives in which i think are not really so busy especially when i notice a lot of notifications and few messages. I do believe all Americans are in fact lazy in some way. We are also thieves in some way too and i say this is how people steal someones time by not giving the time of day to a good friend who is really sick. That is due to the fact about what i said in the beginning not being able to handle or ignoring the situation like an osterich with its head in the sand cause it was ashamed by what it saw. Also so they would not see the slap in the face when the heard the bad news that day. Its ironic how people watch scary movies or horror movies but when it comes to the sick and no one says a word is that person still sick?  Indeed they are and thats the horror of life when someone is to busy or scared to talk to that person then let me make a movie of someone goes through non epileptic seizors and see the horror of someone who looses friends good friends or misplace friends because the friends are living their lives and not caring to share moments with someone who thats really all they have left. If you are a Christian then you know that Golden rule but it also applies to all that live upon this earth how can you say your human and have feelings but you take offense to one word that is harmless until you make it seem as though your feelings are hurt. I dont say a whole lot but i do speak my mind and as long i am in accord with my Heavenly Father then thats all that matters. I dont show emotion in front of people most think i am angry well in my mind you have not see angry but now i have obtain control of that anger. I have went quiet for reasons unknown that metaphorically speaking. Thats funny. Well Its hard to fathom that only half of the people that read all this will be lost by the end. In my opinion please try to read and understand this I say all that to say this be cautious in your tone when speaking that can have serious effect on things. Peace be with you.


In my opinion determination is a everlasting characteristic. With determination there is not impossible of course God is involved in all that happens to you or anyone. All my years of 34 being alive I have noticed that so many people when they live with an illness they go in a very positive outlook in life. So often that we don’t realize which includes my self in this perspective cause I am writing it. I may not punctuate right but I get my point across which is one of my key this my life. Take a journey, live, breathe some air, then take a close look we are all sick in some way emotionally, spiritually, mentally and physical. Just a thought occurred to me is that we may have all those. I have not seen a totally healthy individual. We are all dying of something. Some of us are dying to live while we all are living to die. No matter what it takes always never give up. I hear sometimes people say never or people believing you should never say never. Well I don’t feel its bad when you put it before “give up” cause that is what I live by. Yeah I may get down a lot about whats going on but in my mind I know that everything will work out. You have everything you have now you were every meant to have and I am not talking about the possessions you own. I am talking about us as humans. God breathed life into us and that is all we were ever supposed to have and from that we grew into intelligence. We all have not one person on this earth is stupid. We are all gifted in some way with many talents as to some. I have may talents and I do have determination to get a job done. I been sitting and waiting while looking here and there. We all struggle with life day to day some more than others as it would seem that way to many while in actuality we struggle the same just not at the same time. You could be married and have children and the whole family suffers that being said look at this for a moment. We are unique to the very essence of which God made us but as sand he made us from each spec of dust is not the same. If we stop and look around then and only then we will see that nothing in this earth is the same so how can I fully understand myself when I know this. I don’t I let God do the work that he does every day of my life always has. No matter which corner I turned or where I was at or what I was doing, through the good and the bad days He was there. If you are loved by someone God exists since we know we are loved by some or many. We are limited to our own minds because we are not God. This life as we know it to ourselves is one mystery in it self. I conclude with these words by a very powerful speaking person. He said “Lean not to your own understanding but unto mine.” That’s a good book to read and we all have it somewhere by even in a hotel. I highly recommend it. Thanks to all the love shown to me and now I return it to be replenished. That’s the circle of life and its love and we all have it. Goodnight.

God Allows Suffering

Well as I begin the very first blog I take a few breaths to see what comes out of me. I am able to see the richness of what God has to offer. I believe a lot of non believers are just that because they have read some where that God allows suffering. In my journey I have often bounced from one idea to another one while leaving the question unanswered. I am not good with words when it comes to this. I really think God allows this to occur so that we will keep enduring for His greater purpose than that of ours. We must lean not to our own understanding but to His which was given to us in the first place by Him. My Mom instilled in me this very value that “It is so easy to be bad but so hard to be good.”  Being good is anything that is not against God. Which brings me to another interesting point, which is why I think that so many people turn away from God, is that simply no one is truly saved until we are judged by Him in the final judgement. We have to be baptized three ways, by word, by water, and finally Holy Spirit. That does not mean we are out of the water and free to do anything we choose to do except all good things that God made us to do. I still struggle as all Christians do but I am learning each day I follow Him that I must rid all things that hinders me. From the very beginning of creations of Adam and Eve there was sin when the devil was allowed in the Garden of Eden to test them both. Since than wages of sin is DEATH and by the way all sin is equal sin there is not one sin that is greater than the next. So if I lie I am no different from someone who murders. He says that “thou shalt not lie” if you do then you are killing the Holy Spirit. I do not quote the Bible too much. I have learned many things and suffering is what I see the most along with death. I married my wife on September 14 2013 knowing everything that she has endured for 20 plus years. I have learned that while God does allow suffering to occur the faith that she has is unheard of, yes she hurts very painfully in so many ways, but she keeps her faith. I met years ago then God put me other places so that I would learn. The hard path I took was not hard enough until I had the chance of meeting the woman, with so much of Gods’ love inside her, that I realized that this is my purpose. No matter how torn I was inside spiritually God sent me to her as her reward for her faith and mine even though I was struggling so much with my addictions. I have put those addictions away even though they haunt me. Now it is time to do as my Mom said to me, who by the way passed in Dec. 23, 1998 of cancer, that never to look a gift horse in the mouth. You take what God throws at you and you ask for more. I still to this day do not know exactly or completely why God allows suffering but I do know that the answer will be giving when judgement is giving to me. Till then I will keep searching as those who struggle with the same or with what you struggle with. Never give up hope or lose faith cause God is not dead He is probably right there next to you, as He is to me, watching you trying to figure out why not just come to your senses. If you have answers you seek, if you truly and with a whole heart, ask God for those answers and its time for you to know them He will give you them. Now you maybe thinking that truly and wholesome heart is what you got please note that we are not perfect in His eyes. Ask your self are you living according to how he says you should live? If not then fix that the best you can then revisit the question and who knows by God will give you the answer along the way. He is always been beside me every step of the way even those dark moments where I wanted to throw in the towel. I simply asked if you have a purpose for me then show me and shortly after that I received a phone call and said you do have a reason to live. Oh before I close a special thought for all those who read this, if you’re an atheist I will use the law of science to prove God existence, Law of Inertia states: An object at rest will stay at rest, forever, as long as nothing pushes or pulls on it. An object in motion will stay in motion, traveling in a straight line, forever, until something pushes or pulls on it. The universe did not stay at rest cause God pushed or pull it apart and it did not stay traveling in a straight line either cause for one a circle is not a straight line. I have also heard some say that if I don’t see it, it don’t exists but we breathe everyday and we don’t see air directly. I do know that some may not see God directly but he shows himself everyday by the people who are around us and the Love they have, which by the way is the only thing that can not be measured by any instrument. So if God is not here then where does love come from for the scientists which I am glad to mention that even Einstein himself called out to God and he was not an atheist. I can rest now knowing what I know simply because I have shared this message with more to come. God Bless everyone!!!