I sit here once again to publish my thoughts only a few will even take the time to read but to those who do I want to thank you and those who don’t I pray for you even more. I pray each and everyday that those who don’t know God will come to soon. I feel though that we as people of this earth only have so much time. We are only give so much opportunity and time by the messages we hear from people who walk with God. That one day will come whether it is after we, this generation of the currently living, die or before only God knows when He will come. Jesus said “only my Father knows the hour in which He will come.” So why not prepare yourself for that day not the day you get your next car or even your next job. Prepare today even as I write these words down as God already knew I would do. In the most perfect time we live in to announce such things that I am going to announce to you. Stop, Look, Examine your lives that you so desire to live it is in accordance with God’s? I look at mine and see that maybe not quite so but I am on the journey of life for real this time where I don’t look back and those who I don’t currently see now in my future will be left in the past only to find themselves maybe alone in this world but truly your never alone. Maybe you ask yourself if God is there why don’t He answer me. Well even the ones all the way back to Genesis the land filled with wickedness of people and the land was corrupt before the flood those people of Tubal Cain were not listening so they did not hear God. When the flood came they finally did but by then all the wickedness had drowned in the things that they were doing which was living in the flesh and not for God. You know even now in the present time we live in the flesh not relying on God for the answers to the questions not yet asked out loud but by in our hearts the words go without sound. Silence our hearts sit inside our bodies contained there but the heart of us is our soul and its should speak out to be heard the words of truth. I shall remain faithful and hopeful that one day I will see all of you again even those who think they are saved on this earth please you have know idea people. Yet again another example of not listen if we the people the inhabitants of this earth were already saved why then are we still here on this earth. While yes having believe, faith, repent and being baptized starts the salvation process our work is not done. I myself once lived in a world full of false teachings simply because I did not open God’s word and really look inside the words of truth. My life I have always searched for the Truth only to find lies. I do not blame the people who taught me for what they were taught I can only blame the one who started these lies of once saved always saved and even the so called sinners prayer to ask Jesus in to your heart. That is simply a lie and if you were taught that I suggest you find the real truth most of which is a place call the Churches of Christ. Al though I will say this not all of those are maintaining the true doctrine according to the Church. I can speak the truth over and over and some may not even hear it or read it on my pages I will leave behind. I will say this the ones who do read this or may hear me speak am I saying the truth you have been wanting to hear. If so open your hearts and minds free yourselves with the burdens of the search you have so desperately been seeking. Just as my words have been written only to be glanced upon by a select few while I do not or will ever compare what I write to what was written so long ago in the Bible but my pages that I author here on my blog or Facebook will to be by most go on ignored. Ignoring the words you read because this whole time for those Christians, or more or less claim something that you either don’t live by anymore or most were not in the first place, out there I beg you examine your life does it add it up to God’s word. I urge you now to look about your self down to your very essence of your breathe of being not leaving one no not one inch unturned by your eyes does it match at least some of what God has directed us to do. I know there are things n this world that I may not do but I will try at least to get it done. One thing for sure that I don’t do which I should do more often and by means of now I am doing is holding those who claim to be Christians or the ones who think that they are saved completely now is hold you accountable for all that you are currently doing now. Most of you are not listening and you wonder why your lives feel so disgusting sometimes or wondering why God wont answer your prayers. Its really simple listen to Him and He will listen to you. If you live your life wondering why God allows things to go on the way he does if you knew Him you would already know the answer to that question. Then you go on about your life taking God’s Name in Vain yet you don’t even know what that means anymore. Then you announce to people that you believe in God but not organized religion. I will answer that one you don’t want to live by that organized religion but you want a clean and organized house in which you live. Why do we want a clean and organized house but not religion. No sense to me. What makes sense is the ones who say they believe but are not really believers to obey God is to believe Him in all the things He has spoken the by the writings inspired by Him to be written. First things first God has no last name and even if you don’t believe in God. Are you really an atheist when you curse His name? How can you be something such as that of an atheist when you take His Name in Vain? I will say this I quit smoking because I was not in accordance with Him who I truly believe and I truly believe by trying to Obey Him with everything that is in me. Obeying God’s word is not just on on faith or saying you do its by actually living according to Him and everything He has spoken or inspired those in writing. I leave now my arms are tired my brain is quiet and all the words come to a close for now. With tears in my eyes and pain in my face I know that very few will read this most wont even care cause they do not believe and the ones who say they do and don’t follow every word of God’s will one day be gone forever for real. I care and love all people and pray for all of you that one day you will see the light. If you do see the light on this please don’t worry about loosing friends I don’t I will love all those who hate me or do not follow along as I do one day you may exist no more as you really do believe now. Your soul will be destroyed and you can not see what I may see. I can only hope that, that one day of Judgement comes I will be truly forgiven and be allowed to see the true creation of Heaven.
As I sit here wondering and wandering in my mind I come to find the words that I leave behind in others minds. I know they are just words written in and on a computer to post to a blog. Digitally I find those words live on in the world of the internet that is tracked by the NSA. Why when we speak out loud or have written something down people can understand them straight and to the point while some it takes more that a minute to begin to fathom what God speaks in the words that are written in the Bible. No matter how you read it electronically or on paper. Its very difficult to think that we speak so much more clearer or more intelligent than those of ancient times. If that’s the case why is there no context to my words. I am talking to everyone now and who read this after you. They will infer many things which is utterly stupid to infer anything of what I say cause I speak directly to all people with no context of setting cause I did not put one single form that you could not understand my words are very clear. Then why is the context so important to understand what those who have written in the bible. Are our times so that much different? Not really the only difference is that we are more advanced in what we live in and the things we use the building or vehicles we see or drive or enter those structures. Does that make our minds so much more advanced I think not. I think personally our minds have become rotten with things that should not be in the first place. We were allowed to proceed the thoughts into form of the physical simply because God allowed it. Why then is reading and studying the bible seems as though its one of the hardest things to do in life. Not wanting to read or study what is laid down in the form of words before us. With the advancements of civilizations now is the bible more advanced than us? Questions that form from my mind are endless as to why I can not find a way to explain this maybe its our hearts are truly blinded by other things in this world that we can see or feel or begin to fathom the words of love that are written. Why don’t we clearly see this and we go on ignoring the things in the bible and say things like that’s context and only applies to those that they were talking about at the time at the time it was written. Even more so Churches around this country are allowing things to fit into culture like allowing women to speak or homosexuality to enter and go on like its not against God’s word. Just so they can have more people come to there church when they don’t even know what The Church is about. You have no idea what I am talking about then you need to read study your bible. Don’t be misguided by those that are trying to lead you go to the source and ask those who really know the truth. Picture all this with all the thoughts that are running around in your mind at this time if you read this take it to heart it was meant for you to. To possibly crush those thoughts about why we cant understand something so simple in our so advanced world.
As I sit here with wishful thoughts of one day seeing the light beyond this place I yearn to see your smiling face. I sit here on the bed with old stuff scattered about from a years worth of past. I only look upon and try to smile even though tears fall from long memories burned in. From the day I was baptized to even to right before that I shared great times with one of the most inspirational person I have known. You accomplished so many things of greatness now you live on in the memories of mine and all those you shared your life with. I can now only imagine what it will be like to see you again. I don’t know for sure if you will be exactly the same or what I will even appear to be like I do know that while on earth our love was great and still is the greatest love I have ever experienced. I have learned over the past year an incredible amount of things about people even though it would seem as though some places I went I shouldn’t have gone like Daniel being thrown into the lions den but not quite the same cause mine were people as vicious as they seemed weather or not they were family by blood or not the ones I lived with good or bad as they tried to be to me. Still to this day I don’t hate no one no matter what was done to me emotional wise never physical cause as far as I know no one wouldn’t dare to even cross that line. Although not sure of my actions I am glad for me and them that it never came to that. I have made mistakes and hit a few for the words they spoke I apologized to them that was not being a true Christian. Now I look at what I must do to be one and with your inspirations as well as God’s in mind I keep my eyes on Him not to fall astray with words of past wisdoms spoke to hearts of those that truly hear the Shepard calling. Its time now to conquer all that remains that is to continue to walk without shame of my past I look only to see Him one day and behold I hope I can say I done my best Lord. With this in mind with words now written never again will I smoke a cigarette and more people should do the same. I now am experincing something so new I don’t remember when I felt so not so blue. I still have my moments of monuments of digging up bones so to speak that are dead and gone with only memories left of inspirations never ending cause your inspirations came from same source as mine and all the Christians that remain upon this earth. The Bible is there if I read and study it I am now able to bear my cross that I must carry to the end of my days. Wait now I see the cross has been lifted by Jesus’s hands when He carried His to Calvary. I now know the truth of which I so desired long ago except it was helped along by Him that one day I met you and the rest of your family. Your parents are awesome still true Christians as far as I can tell only God knows what is in our hearts. Its different now how clear I see I wished I could have begun this journey while you were still here you would have been even more happy than you were. I do remember so much from the distant past not crying these days as I was because I remember a Christian should not cry like I have no hope but I am still effected by the verse “ Jesus Wept”. Now I gather for this feast of words hopefully changing someone’s mind about who I am or how a Christian should be just remember Jeannie and the life she lived and you will know where inspiration of mine begins. I don’t write so often because it takes so much out of me then I remember our trips to Myrtle Beach where you climbed Mt. Atlanticus and others and you walked around to play mini golf so much fun we had. I was simply amazed to see you walk the distance now you don’t have to walk any further. That’s why you are my inspiration cause you went the distance I see people who don’t even try well that was over the past year in all the places I went carrying you in my thoughts and Jesus in my heart where He will always stay. There are more like you with your determination I am sure cause they have their heart where yours was. One day just imagining a world without you and while it hurts still love is their warming my soul with the light of Jesus in there. I never will forget you I know some feelings may fade but its your simple determination that sets me a goal that no matter what I will no longer sit with woe is me. I now sit with what maybe my last breathe and the Lord willing to see another day. Although if He calls me home I will not refuse for He is the one I live for. When one day all will see the the truth come in a great big light they will sit no longer for it will be a time to go. As I close this page and post to my blog I will always love you Jeannie a wife forever mine.