Monthly Archives: January 2015

Suffering… It’s what we all do!!!

From a time in each of our lives all the way back to the very first time you remember no matter what age we remember how we suffered. We the people of this planet all over the planet people have suffered. Some not knowing why and how long we will suffer. As the past 8 months I have suffered greatly but I remember there are others who are currently and in the past have. I remember the children that suffer right this minute. I remember all the people that have suffered all the way back from the beginning. I have looked back quite a distance and remember so much of suffering I endured emotionally. Then I turn my eyes on people who are no longer here because God said suffer no more your body is tired, truly tired. As I sit overwhelmed by tears that are wanting to pour. I remember one person that suffered greatly. She was my wife who suffered over 20 years. While in mind there are others who suffered from the same. Now I turn to in my mind all the things she shared with me and one of those things is that there is so many out there that we don’t know about who suffer from the same. No matter where we look with our eyes whether it be inside us in our minds or outside we can really notice that the earth suffers too. Vegetation not so grand as it once was and people or most caused it. No matter where we go suffering will cause us inside to change emotionally. We are frustrated at the sight of injustice by those who suffer from such soreness. Not knowing what lay ahead in the future we try to remember Jesus Christ who suffered immensely even before he was put on the cross. Now we have something to look for if we keep in mind those such as Jeannie, my love, my inspiration. I will say I truly understand now. Through the tears even while you were still on the this earth. I now know what is really going on. Thank You so much for everything you ever said or done for me. I still love you I cant help it. I love you still even though your not here. I will do my best for the rest of my life with many changes that I am not ready for. I don’t know if love will ever come to me truly cause I truly don’t know. Only God knows that answer so for now I will only try to be the best person I can be. I will try now to be as closest I can be to God as possible which means I have to rid myself of all things that hinder me. I will quit sitting here and feeling sorry for my self and remember you. You gave your life to God in all the ways possible even when your were so sick but you got up from the bed you were in and gave it some more. So with all that in each of our minds that read this remember just remember all the Veterans that gave their lives for this country the ones who are here and not here. The ones that are here still suffer for all that they saw when they were in the service some still currently serving this country who are fighting for the safety of us. They suffer greatly as well. My suffering comes from feeling the emotions of others who have endured such horror in their lives. I also remember that there comes a time when the suffering comes to an end. No matter where we look suffering and then one day you, with hope and doing what God asks you to do, will see happiness and beauty beyond our feeble little minds. We must forgive all those who trespass against us no matter how big or small it was. With God as our final judge and gives us one day of such in the end its all worth it to suffer. I have taking a break from writing some of the post on my blog I do want to remove not really needed for my purpose. Thanks so much for reading God bless.

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Life is puzzling but fit them together…

 

I am not sure where to begin with this one. Words lately have become scarce. Not sure what to think or say or even do. I do know there are people in this world that need special care and understanding on our part. As we walk with God in mind and heart I began to realize that there really is a puzzle almost where I can see the pieces and the finish product but cant exactly see how they fit. As I wonder and wander through the minds of others its really terrifying to think “Are we so unique that we cant help another in need?” Not in my mind we have to try to reach others by our words. Cant be forced either other wise you see a spill on isle 5 that needs to be cleaned up because you were a child on the cereal isle begging your mom for some weird jacked up cereal that you at the time could not pronounce. So as we continue to sit and wonder how to reach that person we must first ask three questions : What is your name? How are you doing? What can I do for you? See in my mind its not about what I can achieve from doing this its what they achieve. Its not about me really its about God in what he has called us to do. Those in need take pride in helping but not to be proud within yourself bring glory to Him that gave you life in the first place. There are many that I hold dear and very near to my heart but there is one that new one I feel like a child in a candy store. Then I realize that to much to soon can cause stomach aches even heartaches. So I am working on the puzzle pieces to fit them the best way not just a fast way to hurry and get to the end and say “hey I completed that!” To me its not about that. I don’t want to completely complete it I want to expand it and grow with it. Then when the end comes and the hand is dealt I can be satisfied that it was at its best. Very strange thoughts that come from my mind not knowing what I will say but I with the best intentions do not mean to cause harm its 2015 now and so much has happened. Life is sad sometimes to think that you cant always get what you want but I know this I will always be happy what I have at the moment cause each grows shorter by the minute for all of us. Breathe by breathe til your last. So take one minute to thank God for the minute you do have and maybe you shared it with someone special. That love never fades no matter how much stuff gets piled on top of it. It may get buried and hurt when you move things out of the way but its still there you havent lost it or anything that you gained in your life. Yes my life has been hard and so has everyone’s. The past year has been difficult but there are words I hear everyday that just hits the tears I thought I had lost dried up like raisins. I have cried so much but then I realize that’s ok cause I begin to heal. Healing is awesome. Just remember this Love of another is right around the corner. No matter what you have done or will do or what someone said or has done to you someone out there really loves you. Now piece together all this that I have written and you will see the beautiful picture and it begins with You…